desire

Why does desire have the effect on me that it does? Can I just blame my past lover for not giving me a good experience? As fun as that is to laugh about now, what's the point? He's not here anymore, this won't hurt him anymore, so why is it always in the back of my head? Why can't it all just go away, and leave me behind? He doesn't have to remember me anymore, so what's the point?
Maybe it's not him that I desire. Maybe it's just that his body is what I'm familiar with.